Went to eat Xiao Long Bao Buffet with my Section mates. Spend loads of money -.-

My brain is pretty much in the off mode now. Not really in the mood to think.

Just going in auto pilot. What ever I feel like doing I just do it.

Epic blocked nose. Sometimes can't breathe through my nose which sucks. 

Getting through life is starting to feel like a bitch. The problems are appearing faster than they are solved.

Seems like I have to fight in the dark again. The light just became a few shades dimmer. I wish I can ditch this route and leave everything behind. Go somewhere else, have a brand new start. I guess that shall be my new goal.

Fortunate to know what they are good at.

Fortunate to realise what makes them happy.

Sometimes, I just wish I had my answers.

I wish, someone showed me the way.

When I was young, all I wanted was to grow up.

Now, I look at what the future holds and all I see, is fear.

I fear for myself, for my family, and for those I hold close to me.

All this pressure. I know I created them myself.

The question is will I be able to relieve that pressure?

No longer in a state of mind to think properly.

I can provide any logical answer. I just can't provide the answer to myself.

Can't be due to work. I don't really do that much work. Plus I've worked before.

It's probably me spacing out a little bit too much. Just goes to show how much crap I'm trying to forget.

Anyway, starting to feel like crap again. Mainly because NS is coming. 8 September. That is what 2.5 weeks away? Starting to feel real bad.

Only positive thing that I can look forward to is that I have resigned and Friday is my last day. Kinda happy about that. The work is getting a little bit too boring and bull shitty and stuff. Sometimes I wonder what is going through that particular persons' mind when he/she is submitting their tax return. Seriously mind blowing what some of them are able to come up with.

Sigh...

Now that common sense has ceased to exist in modern day society

I trust myself to keep my sanity

When everyone realises that humans are variables, that is when we accept and gain acceptance.

I have no idea why. Slept a lot last night slept nearly the whole afternoon. So why, why do I feel so tired. Ah whatever.

Feeling a little bit confused right now. Can't really decide whether I want time to go faster or slower.

Faster would mean I will feel infinitely less bored at work. It would also mean I am approaching the date to NS at a faster rate. Which obviously I don't want that to happen. Well whatever the case it is a good thing I don't have control over time, so it technically should keep moving at an equal rate. Right?

Now. More questions. Goggles with degree prescription or just regular goggles. Apparently they are needed for NS. More money the government is making me spend...

If I get the regular goggles. I'll just have to trust my instincts and dodge every single thing I see. Not exactly very safe -.- . But then again. I have no idea how much the ones with degrees costs...

Better get some sleep now.

8.2 seconds of direct eye contact is all it takes for a man to fall in love with a woman. Kinda puts us guys in the chosen category instead of the choosing one. That sucks

I'm physically worn out.

Thursday went jogging. I guess my so out of touch with long distance running that my legs can't even keep up. Totally died when I reached home. The physical activity continues though.

Friday went to work. Walking up the stairs.... I feel like screaming bloody murder from the pain -.-

Saturday. Sec 4/7 gathering.

OH MY GAWDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!! PAIN AHHHH!

Play Football Volleyball Captain BALL. Geez. So dead now.... On the other hand it is nice to see classmates again. Fun shit. :D

Today.(Sunday)

Preparing to go for iceskating now. What is with me and sports? Blasting through so many in one week -.-

Oh well I would probably fall down a lot. I can't skate for my life. K-box after that.

Probably gonna blog some more later if I have more energy left....

Work on monday again... urghh

Boring shit.

That is thanks to playing basketball on Saturday. Obviously I did not die from just playing basketball. We played "bullet".

Let's say I score a shot. The next person must score too. Otherwise he gets "shot" by me which will also mean he has to do push-ups.

Each person had 6 bullets. So I did 60 push-ups. Because I lost. Damn it!

At least I wasn't the first one to die. I was the last one... Ughh can't freaking move. =.='"

Not doing much the past week. Had the WHOLE week off AGAIN. Slacked around at home. Watched Transformers 3. Bought a new pair of jeans since one of the usual ones that I wear tore. Still wondering whether I should go and get it fixed. It's just the knee part can just buy one of those sticker thingys and sew over.

At work. I'm one of the last part timers left there. Let's just say there are 3 people left (and that includes me). I have feeling by the end of this month I might be the last one. Sigh...

I feel like quitting soon anyways.

Next target! WATCH HARRY POTTER! and round up the rest of the stupid army stuff that I haven't yet found in my house or bought.

Should probably try sleeping in a more normal timing now. Tried to sleep yesterday at 1am. I was still awake at 2. Just goes to show how totally screwed my bio-clock is.

Feeling sleepy now lets hope I can sleep

The boring part is these 3 days. Mon- Wed.

Seriously bored -.-

At home nothing to do. Accept for Monday. Went to Bugis with bing.

After that it was just boring boring boring...

Could have gone out but did not.

Listening to random songs and stuff. Play some games.

Back to work on Thursday. Meaning today, I write my posts through 2 days!

Ah fuck. So bored.

Cya. Gotta wake up in 6 hours -.-

Damn headache.

Living life in the fast lane?