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Sunday, November 13, 2016 / 1:24 PM
Split Roads Choices are great. But making decisions is tough. Especially major life decisions.
Each step of my life has been filled with A vs B (sometimes C). Some I regret others I've been pretty happy with.
I've been contemplating career decisions lately. Currently a Service Engineer, I'm also a part-time student studying Accounting and Banking. So I've been trying to get an accounting related job so I can get more experience on the field but that hasn't gone so well.
I'm questioning whether I should continue as an engineer, after all it's been 3 years... Ugh.. headaches.
I wish someone would just bring me in for an interview already.. Just because I don't have a relevant diploma doesn't mean I don't have what it takes to take on the job. I'm more than half way through the degree program already. It's not like I'm doing badly either. My grades are comparable to people who have prior experience and qualifications. The only thing I'm lacking is experience problem is almost every single job advertisement I've seen want's someone with experience.. like what? There are only so many experienced personnel out there. Take a chance! Train someone new!
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Monday, March 09, 2015 / 12:11 AM
It's been too long So it's been 2 years and some months since I last made an entry. I'm probably a little bit rusty. Still this is probably one of the few ways I can say what I want and not many people will notice. Single digit view count FTW! I can always set this to private but I don't really care that much about who si reading this pile of junk that I come up with. The last post I made was back when I was still serving the army. What has changed? I completed my 2 years of mandatory National Service in the military a.k.a. conscription policy a.k.a. cheap labour. During which I pulled out my wisdom teeth, took on an appointment above my rank, went for overseas exercise (also my first plane ride!) and I got to take part in the National Day Parade!! YEA! So NS wasn't as miserable as I thought it would be. But I got the people around me to thank for. I am lucky enough to have met good friends in both my superiors, my peers and my juniors. They offered gave me plenty of opportunities to try new things. For that I have to thank them. Still it doesn't change the fact that I still think NS is a waste of my time. Especially when you look at the financial impact it has on me. I come from a middle class family. I am the only child (don't go spouting of about how lucky I am read on...) Half way through my 3 year diploma news got to me that my family specifically my dad ran into some financial trouble. I was studying... what could I do? Suddenly I hit a wall where I know I will be held back by this in one way or another. So I tried my best to pay off what was left of my tuition fees. I worked part time during the holidays. I sacrificed pretty much all of my social life. Of course my grades took a nose dive. I never recovered from that. Still I managed to graduate. Seems good right? Maybe maybe not. I took up part time work. Nothing much just a typical office job at a government sector. I brought back enough to help pay bills and keep myself alive. Here comes the dreaded letter of enlistment. So I had to leave my part time job shave my head and book in for BMT. FYI recruit allowance starts at 450 SGD a month when I enlisted. You can say "You spend your weekdays in camp where everything is paid for". Fine I'll take that. But remember I have bills to pay. Do you think 450SGD is going to cover that and keep me alive and satisfied? Hell no. Not when Singapore is ranked no.1 most expensive country in the world to live in. Things might have been considerably better if I was made an officer or a specialist maybe even a regular combatant would have helped. But no... I ended up in logistics. So no combat allowance, stuck with the same basic 450SGD (it's 480SGD now). Also to note there was something wrong with my batch of recruits because even the people ranked in the top 10 of my platoon ended up going to logistics. Like what?! You let capable men like those guys sit in a storeroom and rot? Mind you I was labelled as combat fit. In fact I was in the top tier of combat fitness(from all the medical history and what not). So stuck with that shitty allowance I moved to my unit and spent the remaining time of my NS life getting promotions and financial perks whenever I can. Mind you I did not moonlight. Eventually I made it to CPL and my allowance is now 550SGD. How much is that? Not much. The part time job I mentioned earlier? I worked 8am-5pm five days a week and I still brought home more than whatever I was given in NS. How was I to pay for bills and continue living with that pathetic sum? Any full-time job I can get as a fresh graduate with a diploma would easily be 3 times that amount. So I have effectively lost what could have been 66% of my income per month for 2 freaking years. Moving on... Most NSFs like myself would be looking to further their studies after they graduate. Unlike some of my peers I was not able to secure a position in a local university because of my grades(read above). Meaning I would have to look into other options if I am to obtain a degree. One look at the tuition fees and I crumbled. There is no way I would be able to pay that amount of money and for a family with financial troubles there is no way I would be able to get a loan. So effectively I was left with one option. I had to go to work. September 2013, I ORDed in peace or so I thought. I got a job and started saving. 1 year and 6 months later. I still haven't gone back to school. Even with an "average" basic salary of an engineering diploma graduate I struggled to save enough cash to go for my studies. Although I have to say I am getting so close I might as well submit my application now. But the journey was tough. I clocked hours and hours of overtime. Picked up skills that are pretty much out of my job scope. Some may say this is a good thing. I'm a freshie I need to learn. But I did all that just so I can at least cover up for the 2 years I lost surviving instead of improving. During my 2 years in the army I gained a lot. But I lost many things as well. In the army they always say that whatever we learn we can use to protect our family in times of need. What's the point when the policies that are laid down effectively screws my life over and all I can do is watch in envy when other's enjoy their life while I stress myself over the next step I have to take to save myself and my family. This is just a rant. I have no idea what I'm talking about half the time and there will be things that don't quite add up or don't make sense. Bye. |
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Sunday, October 30, 2011 / 12:27 PM
Urge to blog Not knowing why I just felt like doing it as usual.
Went to eat Xiao Long Bao Buffet with my Section mates. Spend loads of money -.-
My brain is pretty much in the off mode now. Not really in the mood to think.
Just going in auto pilot. What ever I feel like doing I just do it.
Epic blocked nose. Sometimes can't breathe through my nose which sucks.
Getting through life is starting to feel like a bitch. The problems are appearing faster than they are solved.
Seems like I have to fight in the dark again. The light just became a few shades dimmer. I wish I can ditch this route and leave everything behind. Go somewhere else, have a brand new start. I guess that shall be my new goal. |
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Monday, September 05, 2011 / 2:48 PM
Some people are just fortunate... Fortunate to find something they want to do.
Fortunate to know what they are good at.
Fortunate to realise what makes them happy.
Sometimes, I just wish I had my answers.
I wish, someone showed me the way.
When I was young, all I wanted was to grow up.
Now, I look at what the future holds and all I see, is fear.
I fear for myself, for my family, and for those I hold close to me.
All this pressure. I know I created them myself.
The question is will I be able to relieve that pressure?
No longer in a state of mind to think properly.
I can provide any logical answer. I just can't provide the answer to myself.
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Tuesday, August 23, 2011 / 11:51 PM
It's happening again For some mysterious reason. I'm starting to feel down again. Come to think of it. The pass few days have been pretty much a blur. Nothing much going on and stuff. Can't be due to work. I don't really do that much work. Plus I've worked before. It's probably me spacing out a little bit too much. Just goes to show how much crap I'm trying to forget. Anyway, starting to feel like crap again. Mainly because NS is coming. 8 September. That is what 2.5 weeks away? Starting to feel real bad. Only positive thing that I can look forward to is that I have resigned and Friday is my last day. Kinda happy about that. The work is getting a little bit too boring and bull shitty and stuff. Sometimes I wonder what is going through that particular persons' mind when he/she is submitting their tax return. Seriously mind blowing what some of them are able to come up with. Sigh... Now that common sense has ceased to exist in modern day society I trust myself to keep my sanity When everyone realises that humans are variables, that is when we accept and gain acceptance. |
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Saturday, August 13, 2011 / 2:04 AM
Step Step Step. Dead shit tired. I have no idea why. Slept a lot last night slept nearly the whole afternoon. So why, why do I feel so tired. Ah whatever. Feeling a little bit confused right now. Can't really decide whether I want time to go faster or slower. Faster would mean I will feel infinitely less bored at work. It would also mean I am approaching the date to NS at a faster rate. Which obviously I don't want that to happen. Well whatever the case it is a good thing I don't have control over time, so it technically should keep moving at an equal rate. Right? Now. More questions. Goggles with degree prescription or just regular goggles. Apparently they are needed for NS. More money the government is making me spend... If I get the regular goggles. I'll just have to trust my instincts and dodge every single thing I see. Not exactly very safe -.- . But then again. I have no idea how much the ones with degrees costs... Better get some sleep now. 8.2 seconds of direct eye contact is all it takes for a man to fall in love with a woman. Kinda puts us guys in the chosen category instead of the choosing one. That sucks |
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Sunday, July 31, 2011 / 1:06 PM
One of many of my "I'm tired" posts But seriously... I'm physically worn out. Thursday went jogging. I guess my so out of touch with long distance running that my legs can't even keep up. Totally died when I reached home. The physical activity continues though. Friday went to work. Walking up the stairs.... I feel like screaming bloody murder from the pain -.- Saturday. Sec 4/7 gathering. OH MY GAWDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!! PAIN AHHHH! Play Football Volleyball Captain BALL. Geez. So dead now.... On the other hand it is nice to see classmates again. Fun shit. :D Today.(Sunday) Preparing to go for iceskating now. What is with me and sports? Blasting through so many in one week -.- Oh well I would probably fall down a lot. I can't skate for my life. K-box after that. Probably gonna blog some more later if I have more energy left.... Work on monday again... urghh Boring shit. |
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