The boring part is these 3 days. Mon- Wed.

Seriously bored -.-

At home nothing to do. Accept for Monday. Went to Bugis with bing.

After that it was just boring boring boring...

Could have gone out but did not.

Listening to random songs and stuff. Play some games.

Back to work on Thursday. Meaning today, I write my posts through 2 days!

Ah fuck. So bored.

Cya. Gotta wake up in 6 hours -.-

Damn headache.

Living life in the fast lane?

Completely trying to cope with not having money to spare.

The army already made me spend 100++ bucks before I got any allowance from them.

Ugh.... 88 for the specs. 33 for the "inexpensive" watch.

Bought a new pair of converse shoes. I had to. THIS IS NOT A SPLURGE!

The old pair is totally cui TTM!! The sides can see the sponge spilling out. The part where they glue(?) the sole and the rest of the shoe together is kinda broken. It's sad really I really liked that shoe. I initially wanted to get the same design. But I decided against it. Need some new blood in my shoe department.

Bought a bag yeterday. ZiNC bag. As usual. Don't judge me for it. I just find it a better alternative to spending 100+ on Nike or Adidas although I did see an Adidas Liverpool messenger bag for 57.

Was tempted to buy it but I guess I chose the cheaper option =p.

Watched Super 8. (Both of these events occured at Vivo) Guess what? Super 8 is not so bad. I will need to permanently burn this movie into my brain. So imma have to watch it again, one way or the other.

Other than that nothing much. I kinda feel like I'm gonna be broke in the days to come. After all I have this week off. Like the whole freaking week with no contribution to my income next month. Thats just sad...

How long has it been since we spoke? 20 days... Perhaps this will last forever. I don't know. At some point one party is going to breakdown. I hope it's not me. At some point when I can support myself, I might be out of here. I feel too unwelcome all the time. I feel like I don't fit in. Guess thats what being an only child means huh?

Socializing skills = nil. Even with my own family I can screw up so bad.

Ridiculous.

Seems like my supposed refuge isn't going to last that long.

Private properties, please have your prices drop to like shit low levels when it is time for me to get a place of my own.

Rich be richer poor be poorer. FUCK THAT RULE! I will break it!

Hmm hungry. I'll go search for some food before finishing this post.

In the days to come, I will have to remind myself that "I am awesome" in my own right.

If I forget this someone please remind me.

Guess I'm busy huh?

Lets see what did I do.

Went to IT fair.

Watched X-men First Class.

Went fishing for the first time in my whole life!

Played Mahjong like 3 hours ago?

There should actually be a lot more going on but I don't remember them. I will at some point but I guess I don't remember them now.

IT fair up first!

Went with bing in the afternoon from like 1 to about 330? Walked around peeked at some stuff that looks interesting. Didn't really feel like getting anything except for some portable speakers. Didn't get them since there was only like 2 or 3 types there. Pathetic...

After that went to Cineleisure- how the fuck do you spell this? - to find kit and zs. Checked in at suki sushi. Ate our fill of sashimi and sushi and went back to IT fair. I seem damn bo liao to be going to IT fair twice on the same day. Imba!

Next... Fishing??

Oh yea! First fishing trip of my life! Went with a couple of colleagues. Went all the way to Changi Village. Bought some bait and stuff. Funny thing was. There were 3 of us. Guess how many fishing rods we had.

1

One rod for 3 people. Awesome right? Anyways we didn't catch much. Only one teeny tiny one. We set it free.

Oh yea epic moment. There was this bunch of guys fishing there. One of their rods got pulled by something and the whole rod flew into the sea. Literally. The best thing was they already tied the rod to the railings. How the rod flew off is mind boggling. Whatever the hook caught it must have been really big. Anyway the epic part was when the guy kept complaining, and at one point he shouted. FUCK THE WORLD.

Oh boy was that entertaining or what.

Oh well X-men First Class was entertaining. Some parts were plain hilarious. Especially the Wolverine part.

And mahjong is fun only if you play with people of about the same level. Although my level of luck is considerably low. So I'mm basically fucked most of the time. D:

I kicked that habit. I hope to start again, new, fresh and free. But there are just some things that are tugging at me at the back of my mind.

Watch out! SUN BURN!

Isn't it enough that you already messed up my life?!

You have already lost the right to control me. When you made that fucked up decision, you lost all your respect from me.

Don't think you know what I go through. You are not even close to knowing. So don't think about understanding. Yes I am more capable now. That does not make me a snob. I don't become a snob because of my actions. I become a snob because I detest YOUR actions, YOUR reactions.

I keep my mouth shut to save some dignity for all of us. Don't assume you win. You never will. Not with that loser mindset. I hate to say this. It makes me an ungrateful brat but enough is enough. I have my own things to do. I need my own time to manage my stuff.

You think all I do in front of the computer is play? You think all I do outside is have fun and hangout with people? So apparently sleeping is not allowed at home. Eating is not allowed at home. Playing is not allowed at home.

If a home does not provide rest. Does not provide food. Does not provide shelter. Then what sort of a home is that?

Why do you think I need to work so hard? I worry. I care. I may not show it. You know I do. So why mess around with me when you know I'm already tensed as it is. I'm trying to fix my own life, while trying to fix yours. Are you even trying to understand mine? Don't assume you already do. You don't. Society was not what it was when you were kids. Heck, you may not even recognize society by the time I have my own kids. The change is so radical you won't be able to keep up. So don't assume you know. You don't. Things are operating at a whole other level. Don't flatter yourself. You have not been through what I have been through.

I am now someone that can't even chase his dreams.

Chains of commitment tying me down. Wearing me out.

I have said long ago, I want out.

What I have experienced, I wish I wasn't a part of it.

It may have made me who I am today.

But that was one hell of a tough road to walk. I did not choose that road. I was forced on to it.

Time will come when I choose my split roads again. I have no idea which road I may pick. It will be my choice and my choice alone.

I let too many people in on too many of my decisions. It's high time I did things my way. It may not be easy. But at least it is mine.

I'm a selfish bastard.