It's for that camp facilitator thingy.

Sounds kind of stupid calling it OJT when what we do there during the training is well... talk.

The only thing mildly relevant to training is the cheers? and the booklet of basic shit we need to know about camping there. BTW I still have absolutely no idea where the camp sites are. ROFL. Jokes aside I probably should start finding out where the campsites are and how to get there. I have a reputation to keep up. I mean I never ever get lost if I take the lead. Usually that would be because I have a map or I did research beforehand. More importantly, common sense.

Although I kinda have common sense. I can't really read people. Like their body language and stuff. That makes my response kind of slow and stupid at times.

But then again... I haven't exactly met anyone who can be 100% sure what another person is thinking or feeling. It's just impossible. It could be an act. It could be real. It could jolly well be that the other party can't express themselves properly.

So the under lying message here is that. Don't go asking me to go and woo this girl. Don't tell me that this girl confirm plus chop likes me. Don't tell me that I'm showing interest for so and so. Don't tell me that ___ shows interest in me.

It may or may not be true. There will always be speculations. But for goodness sake, make your point once or twice. Don't keep repeating it over and over and over again. It can seriously start messing with a person's head. I mean jeez unless Party A confesses that he/she likes Part B don't freaking put pressure on them. If they want to say it they will!

Whatever it is the important thing now is that, I am going to Malaysia with the guys from my poly class. My first time travelling out of the country alone. Like finally...

Although I'm kinda broke -.-'" That fucking rental for the graduation robe really set me back a huge amount. Same goes for my savings. I'm not putting off saving my money. I don't want to be one of those that live the moment. I mean sure living every day by the second is fun and all. But I want to know I have the back up I need when I need it. I don't want to see myself begging for help when big shit happens. I'm only saying when big shit happens. Because small shit always happens when you have rotten luck. Whatever the case, next week will be all out relaxation. Monday graduation. Tuesday - Friday I took off to go have fun!!!

I close my eyes. All I see is what I can be. I open my eyes. All I see is a bottomless pit.

Thanks, for screwing it up for me.